I've sat here trying to edit some earlier written entries, and im challenged by the echo of truth. Opinions, facts, truth, simple-raw-reality in my life. How can i run away from that? The one question i keep asking myself is 'why are you complaining so much when 'they' have so little?' I've never been comfortable about being comfortable, there is something within me that rejects it, yet i fit into it so perfectly, i've allowed comformity to fit me like a glove.
This is my biggest challenge in the current season im in, how do i break free?? how can i run with the truth and scream to the mountain top without fear? What im most afraid of is, is that i can, my life was not made for conformity, my wings have no seams, they are made to shake off fear and just be bold.
The truth is, being in Canada makes me unhappy, or is it the lack of community i feel here? the constant longing for a church that engages into a true relationship with Christ than one that is solely happy with golden chalices and their starving countries left behind. Lets be honest for a second, i grew up being spoonfed the Gospel, into compassion, into solidarity yet at the second that i get a chance to forget what all of that means, i choose too. Growing up in a beautiful church adorned with marble and gold... i bought into the pretending that this was the real world. How could i adjust reality into this truth of marble walls, stain glass windows and starving children in Latin America?
How can i listen on saturday nights, to sermons about loving one another when neither of us sitting there will even smile at the homeless lady waiting outside for some food. Maybe she was desperetly looking for the truth like i am.
The Church is not made for people that want to work on their own, but one's that are willing to give it all up for their Brother and ask God to share His heart. Because seriously, what kind of world has He been left with to love, yet He still presses on..on... and on...and on...
What do we do now? I can complain or simply share the facts with what is happening, and im sure my church isnt the only one that isnt truly aligning with what the Word is constantly revealing. God says it so simply: Learn to do right! Seek justice, encourage the oppressed. Defend the cause of the fatherless, plead the case of the widow. Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute. Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and needy"
How is it possible that after an amazing service, we feel on top of the world and like God can do anything through us,but when we walk by 'Sally' in downtown Hamilton we wont even look at her for she is only part of the scenery.
I've been fed up with going to church on the weekend but not being challenged to BE Church everyday of the week. why is it that we have become afraid of being bold, yet when a friend dare's you to do something out of the ordinary you will do it, because you simply cant back down. Well i cant simply back down from this, im thirsty for community, im thirsty for truth, im thirsty for Justice to be the norm and for us to never have to think twice about choosing love vs hate. Please friends, lets be uncomfortable during these circumstances, lets not look away from the injustices of this world, that we as a church keep participating in. This is not the Church He wants, lets be love...simple and honest love.
Love that does not walk away but walks with, love that wants food for the neighbour as much as for self, love that desires justice for Canada but also for the rest of the world. Revival is not for one single place, but for His whole Creation.
These are words that challenge me everyday, let them remind you everyday to love without seams, that's the way He loves us, lets share it!
"Love has no meaning if it isn't shared. Love has to be put into action. You have to love without expectation, to do something for love itself, not for what you may receive. If you expect something in return, then it isn't love, because true love is loving without conditions and expectations" - Mother Teresa
I grew up with the echo of this man's bold love for his people, i grew up with many repercussions of the war, but i grew up with the same Hope he professed- i cant forget that, and i cant simply be satisfied with what our church is living as truth, we need a reality check into what true communion with the Father's heart means.
